Ma,
I think of you everyday and think of you everyday. I remember in Somerville, when I could not sleep at night and you would make shadow animals on the wall for me until I got tired again and you would bring me back to bed. I love the fact the you and I were the only ones that liked the split pea soup with the pigs feet. I miss not cooking with you. I am sorry that you were so sick when you were pregnant with me. I know that you really tired to understand what was wrong with me health wise but it just happens. I just didn't know how to tell you because I didn't know either. I know your proud of me and so are the rest of our family up there. I dream a lot about your brother, I just see him in my dreams and we talk. I lost again 17 lbs. I made it to a size 14. The doctors made so many mistakes with me. Like misdiagnosing my asthma. I would of never smoked. Now that I am older, I am no longer afraid to talk to you but then you left. But now I still talk to you and I know your listening. I feel you all the time around me. Thank you, ma
Love and Blessing,
Ma, God, Jesus, Mary and the holy spirit
Renee
Here is another great picture of Tristan and Dad
Hi Mom, 
